the things that shouldnt make me happy, make my day.

the things i fear and end up worrying about, i have realized are the things that free me from my stress. ironic in a way, almost oxymoronic, but it's true.

the things i enjoy, usually are things i over exaggerrate, and they turn out to be not even all that great at all.

knowing this, i feel like my eyes are opened now. im finally understanding myself just a little bit more, because so often i feel like i dont know who i am. guess that's just the motions of being a young adult.


in other words, i learned today that i need to learn to relax and take it easy, let life take me on its course. right now, i have no worries, i have no cares, except of course, my own happiness and interests. nothing can phase me.

best of all, i want nothing at all. it's weird not wanting anything, but i'm in a state where im not longing for anything. im just content with my situation, and i think that is a huge step for me. i finally appreciate everything i have and im not whining about what i dont.