i should make art a hobby.

i'm terrible at it, but yesterday i realized how much it chills me out. i was so high strung yesterday, but once i sat down and got to working in class, i was fine. i do very well with work that requires little thought, and in class i didnt have to think at all. i just sat down and colored, and that was the best relief for my mind.

someone told me the other day, "it's because you're intelligent, you analyze everything." and i never really thought about it before because i dont characterize myself as intelligent usually. i think of myself moreso as introspective, but the point is that it's true - i do analyze everything. i have a habit of considering every aspect and detail of my life. i think too much throughout the day, about school, about myself, about others, about my future, about life in general. i try to put everything into multiple perspectives. i spend my time dissecting every situation and person, trying to understand them, figure them out, predict their motives, intentions and actions. with my mind running like that all day, it's nice to relax for a moment.

to put it in the simplest terms possible, coloring put me in my happy place, which probably sounds strange, if not childish and creepy, but that's how i felt. my mind was at ease, and i wasn't analyzing a single thing.

i dont think i've felt as content as i did yesterday for quite some time. i think i should invest in a good case of prisma colored pencils so that when my mind gets all crazy, i can just color my madness away :)



on another note, im in love with Adele. I listened to her whole album and it's full of poetry, and amazing verses/quotes. I cant paste any here because i cant pick and choose. i'd want to paste the whole album, but i wont cause that would be a little eccentric.

"Favoritism ain't my thing but in this situation I'll be glad to make an exception."