i feel like death

slept for 12 hours and i'm still miserable.
and now i have all the added stress of making up everything I missed today.
cool.

I find it odd that

the SAT Subject Test for English Literature is 60 minutes long with 60 multiple choice questions, and the SAT Subject Test for Spanish is also 60 minutes long but has 85 multiple choice questions. Shouldn't the foreign language test provide more time for the student than the English test? It only seems most logical to me, considering that English is my first language, and Spanish is my third.
Stupid collegeboard. They don't know what they're doing these days.

I'm so tired of talking about college wit my family. The discussions always end up with me being pretty much scolded for wanting to go to a good school. They make it like it's a sin for me to even think of going to New York or Boston. Everyone just pesters me about how I'm supposed to pay for everything and I'm always told to just settle for Worcester State and go there. The thing is that I can't settle for something less than what I want. I want out of Worcester, and I want to go to a school that's full of kids that are as academically driven as I am.
To be honest, I'm not worried about money either. I'm looking into scholarships already and I will work really hard to get all the money that I can. Obviously, I won't go to a school if I receive zero financial aid, no matter how much I love the place. I have at least some common sense, so there should be no worrying as to how I'm going to pay to go to a school. I know that I will get money somewhere out of Worcester and I'll be fine.
Besides, I don't see why everyone is worrying because I haven't even applied anywhere and it's unknown as to whether or not I'll get accepted into my top choice schools. Everyone should just get off my case about where I want to go, what I want to major in, and how I'm going to survive financially. I don't think it's appropriate for people, such as my aunt, who have no high school or college education to lecture me on college plans. I'll figure something out as time goes on, so until then I'm just going to not even give an answer to anybody, cause I really don't need any negativity or pessimism in regards to my future.

Today was superb, and I know that sounds really awkward to describe my day as "superb", but honestly, I had such a good day. It was so relaxed and fun in every way. I discovered a lot of things about myself that I hadn't realized before, and I'm starting to really enjoy everything more. I'm not saying that I didn't before, but my eyes have sort of opened up and everything is just so much more clear. That sounds much more deep and significant than it actually is, but what Im trying to say is that I've just been sort of enlightened, and I think I'm going to just take life on differently, though I'm not sure how yet.
I've started appreciating my class more recently, too. I'm learning to value and take advantage of my time in highschool. I realized how close we all have finally gotten and we all seem to enjoy each other's company and it's just sad that we'll be taken apart when we go to college just when we started getting close. It's pretty sad. Good thing I still have a year and a half left with everybody :)

so i dropped out of the SAT prep program cause I had no time for it. It was completely draining me and I had a good score on the practice test anyways so I think I should be fine.
this better not come back to bite me in the butt though.....

practice was surprisingly easy today. it was good to be back on the courts :))
i cant wait till it gets warmer and i can start getting a tan again
next thing I know it'll be summer and I'll be off to Poland
then i'll be a senior and ill grauduate and then ill be in college and then itll be the end of the world.
sweet, haha.

the weekkk

My week has been pretty nuts, and I've been dying like the whole time but tomorrow is finally Friday so it's all good. Without the help of energy drinks, I wouldn't have made it :)
However, because of this week I have been considering the idea of quitting the SAT prep program that I'm doing. I wish I could stay but if I keep having such rough weeks without time to do anything, then I'm going to have to stop, despite how much I don't want to. Priorities are priorities, and there is no way that I will quite tennis to make more time in my schedule.
Speaking of tennis, I'm looking forward to start on Monday (do I even need to say this??) and I FINALLY found a pair of tennis shoes that fit me, are comfortable, and are almost decent looking. So that's a plus. I'm ready (at least mentally, because I definitely lost my fitness and skill over the year) to hit the courts, and I noticed that Burncoat has their nets up. That makes me want to go down to South and put some nets up so I can practice and show those girls up. Supposedly, they're out for revenge cause we pretty much murdered interhigh last year. :)
Jesus, I take this stuff way to seriously though. I should not have just written a paragraph dedicated to tennis.
Anyway, on another more serious note, I am still looking for a job. I thought I had one in the bag but the woman never called me back for an intervew, probably cause my hours just weren't suitable. There is hope though! :))
My mom came up with the idea for me to apply to Burlington Coat factory, and even though I hate that place cause it's awkward and full of crazy people, my cousin has been working there for years and has a good position, so he's going to try to help me get a job there. I guess they're pretty good about people working weekends, so that's really perfect for me, especially cause it's 5 minutes down the street. So when I get my license, I won't have to waste too much money on driving to work. :) I'm going in tomorrow most likely to pick up an application.
All in allll, this is a looong blog but I just felt like writing something in English instead of Spanish, cause that's the homework I'm doing right now.

BTW, my boyfriend came out with a new music video. With the exception of the awkward, curly woman-like dreads, he's loookin daaaamn fine.
Here's the link cause youtube disabled the embedding.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUQsyLP2aYU

what the heck

Does the earth not realize that it's almost spring time, and that it's time for snow to be done? It's time for flowers to start growing and for me to start playing tennis. I'm fed up with snow, ice, and freezing mornings at the bus stops. It's time for some warm weather. I'm about ready to try to reverse it all....

hello brooklyn

sooo
i'm going to nyc during april vacation for a few days.
i'll be touring nyu and columbia :))),
and thennnn
i might go to a taping of the colbert report for free, all thanks to my cousin :)
super psycheddd.

owen pallet

is my new favorite person

:)

Levine's coaching this year.

tennis!

Tennis schedules are up already, thanks to highschoolsports.net.
I'm soooo thrilled
Our first game is on April 1st, home and against Blackstone Millville.

That's a month away! It's so close! I'm so thrilled that I started trembling when I realized how close it is. It's so great. Tomorrow we're going to try to call Levine and see if he's coaching. I'm praying to God that he is, because this year is supposed to be pretty decent for us. I just wish we could start conditioning at least though.

I'm so excited because we're playing SPM twice, and I loved playing them last year. I don't care if they crush me. I love playing them
I also find it funny how we play North on our home courts twice, because their courts are shitty and last year Mr. Levine said he wouldn't let us play there ever again.
Thanks Levine :)

Columbia sucks

I just made a reservation for my tour of NYU, and it was so easyy and efficient. Then I tried finding out when I could go tour Columbia but they offer like 0 tours in April (when I plan on going to New York). All Columbia offers are information sessions, which obviosuly isn't good enough, and that's why it sucks.
The End.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

is a complete idiot.
end of story

polish citizenship

So a little while ago I found out that I can become a Polish citizen because both of my parents were born there, and I've been meaning to actually figure out how to go about getting that citizenship, so that's what I did today. I'll be calling the Consulate in New York soon to get my application, so I'm wicked excited. Once I get my citizenship, I can get an ID at 18 and then I'm free to get a house/whatever over there (but that's like in the far future).
Also, I'm setting up a trip to New York during April vacation to go tour NYU and Columbia. I don't even need to explain how excited I am, because everyone can pretty much expect it from me, haha.
On another note, I drove through Kelly Square yesterday and survived. It was great. :)